Tuesday, November 25, 2008

You might be a hormonal basketcase if...

...you spend a good part of the day panicking because you suddenly realized that any day now you could be going into LABOR (and what the hell were you thinking, wanting to give birth, anyway, that's going to HURT LIKE HELL!), and then leave the doctor's office in tears because, after two weeks of contractions, you're not even starting to dilate yet.

Let's just say I'm having a bad day. Everything's fine, Caitlyn's doing great (and, while the nurse didn't measure her at my weekly non-stress test, she did say she is a "good size baby"). My doctor started talking induction, and I'm still 11 days from my due date. As in "I hope I don't have to induce you, especially if you're not ready yet, because that just makes things difficult." Not that he's ready to actually schedule it yet or anything, but obviously he thinks things should be moving in a forward direction by now, too. I left the clinic with a post-due-date doctor and non-stress test appointment, whereas before my last one was supposed to be next Tuesday.

By the time I got home, I just couldn't keep it in any longer and begged hubby for a big hug and started crying. Gotta give him kudos - he didn't get mad at me for being all emotional like he sometimes does, and even tried to help me see the bright side if I *do* have to be induced - like, I'll know when, and I'll have my doctor (because if you go on your own you get whoever's on call at the hospital, but if he has to induce my doctor will schedule it when he's there), and I'll definitely know for sure when I finally get to leave work (since I've been ready for that for a while now!).

Don't get me wrong, I haven't begun to reach the "desperation point" where I just want to rip her out myself. I didn't sleep well last night, so I'm overly tired today which makes me overly emotional even when I'm NOT just shy of nine months pregnant!

I think it's because I'm a planner and a prepper. We've been all but ready for a while now - I've been wrapping things up at work for about six weeks, the nursery is nearly finished (and if we just buckled down and did it, it would be done in a couple of hours), the baby laundry is all done, the freezer is full, the car seat is installed, and we're just waiting. Just waiting. Twiddling my thumbs, so to speak. This is why I didn't set a date to leave work, much as I'm ready to be done. At least it's a distraction.

Who knows...maybe I should make hubby take me to the beach for a day this weekend...


Anonymous said...

Wow, you're prepared alright. What a role model for me. :)

Did you guys sign up for cord blood banking? I'm psyched cuz today, even though we're already enrolled, they discounted our fees another $250 after I called in to apply the coupon at

Okay, nesting like crazy... back to work. :)

Best wishes to ya.

kbeeps said...

Hey there, anonymous! You must be from the due date forum... :-)

Nope, we're not doing cord blood banking. We talked about it because hubby has all kinds of nastiness lurking in his genes, but it was just too expensive right now. That's awesome that you got an extra discount!

Norma said...

Oh honey....hang in there. Take one day at a time. Tomorrow will be a good distraction. Go shopping Friday and do a lot of walking to get things going. :) Take care.

Anonymous said...

I know this won't make you feel any better but I think you just described the experiences of about a zillion and one soon-to-be Mamas before birth. I was totally going in all the time getting not much activity yet and then boom... Adi decided it was time to come so... hold out hope but remember what hubby said 'cause this time he was right on the money. If you have to induce you will have your doctor and that is nice. It will all turn out well and sooner than later... just remember where you were a year or so ago... still waiting and hoping to even be pregnant! So yay... you are about to have that baby.

Tia and Jillian said...

You're doing great and your little one will be here any day now! Good luck sweets! I'm so excited for you.